Adventure

Well, I'm sitting here in the hostel in Flagstaff reflecting on the amazing day I've had. It has been so much fun going on an adventure. It's been so long. Well, since August anyways. I've realized that I want to live a more adventurous life. I don't think that necessarily even means traveling more. There is so much I don't even do in Utah. I vow to start being more adventurous in my own back yard!

Today, take a risk
Step out of your comfort zone
Come on, you want to.

Accomplished

Today, I finished my first sewing project since Home Ec in junior high. I sewed a shirt for my halloween costume. I discovered something interesting during this project. It is very meditative to be involved in artistic pursuits. I definitely think any activity that is repetitive or monotonous in our life can be turned into a meditation. That is my thought for the day!

Green green grass withers to brown
As leaves cover it like a blanket.
Sleep little grass, you'll soon awake.
When Spring comes singing again.

Busy days

Some days get a little busy, but it's a good reminder to just breathe and the universe will see to it that everything works out in a beautiful amazing way.

Simplicity.

Fall

It's a beautiful snowy day today. It reminds me of a truth: all seasons wax and wane and come and go. Such is life. I find myself casting off many old patterns at the moment. In a way, I feel like the tree shedding its leaves. The winter of my life is upon me. A stage of rest and reflection to lead to a new spring filled with an even greater abundance. The leaves would only rot on my branches if I chose to leave them where they are. No, I must shed the old ways of being and make room for the new. It is the message of autumn to me. I go thoughtfully and soberly into hibernation.

Fallen leaves of orange and red
Blow across a land chilled and dead
Do not weep for what is past
Look instead at what may come at last
New life fuller than the old
Happiness bigger, brighter, more bold.
Life will turn and turn again.
Unfolding to where? It's not known to men.

Giving things up...

Today I thought I would write about a topic that has come up a lot in several different conversations lately. It has been interesting to see other perspectives on it. That topic is releasing and letting go of things. Lately, I feel that I have been doing this quite a bit. I have heard several friends mention that they felt I was denying myself something. I find this really interesting because I don't feel like I've been denying myself anything. I feel quite the opposite. I feel that by letting go of old habits and ways of being that I've made room in my life for something new to take root and grow. I feel more spiritually in tune than I ever have. I feel truly happy and energetic for the first time since I was a child. Denying myself? Perhaps. I think what I've really been doing is denying myself connection. To participate in something that no longer serves is to deny oneself the chance of adventure and the unknown. I may be called weird or crazy for it, but I know that I have got to march to the beat of my own drum wherever that beat may lead me down this crazy path called life. That's all there is to it :)

I've got to run free neath the skies
I'm choosing to create my paradise.

Sexuality

Well, I'm getting ready for an afternoon run and then lots and lots of sewing. I got this. i got this. My thought for today is about sexuality and the dreaded s-word: sex! Lately, I've been wondering if we have been completely misled by our culture and prevailing dogma. Are we missing out on an intimacy so powerful that just several tastes of it could last a lifetime? I happened upon this idea recently in some reading. I've begun to wonder. We're told that we are sexual beings, that this is how we are. But is it? What if actually this was programming to lead us away from love and intimacy? I've been wondering. Perhaps even married couples are the same as unmarried. Maybe we're all marching down the wrong road. So, time to delve into and experiment with. Perhaps it is possible to transcend our baser nature and have intimacy that makes anything else we've experienced look like a joke. I think the possibility alone makes it worth the effort.

I love me,
I love me not,
But that's just life.

Discomfort

We all go through periods of relative ease and relative discomfort. I know that yesterday I had a moment of discomfort with the processes of my body. It's a lesson that there is not necessarily a cure all in life. Even if I was living my ideal circumstances, things would still come up. Meditation and yoga together have taught me that I can breathe through anything. What a tremendous gift that is! Words cannot describe how blessed I feel to have the knowledge that I may not control external circumstances yet I can still control my response to them. Another thing that came up for me yesterday was that I can choose to send love to those that irritate me. Nothing switches your vibration faster than that. Well, time to go for a run. Thank you God for this day!

I am complete,
There's nothing missing.
I'm a masterpiece from birth.
It's only my own meddling
Over and over
That obscures my perfection.