Sunday, June 6, 2010

Is it true?

Today I came to the realization that I need to start reexamining everything I "know" about myself and others. Is it true really? Oh, I may have gathered evidence, and I may have people on my side. Still, the question remains... Is it true? Really, is it true? If someone is irritating you, if someone is angering you, if you have a negative belief about yourself... Is it really true? I realized that sometimes we all fight reality and tell stories. We fight how people are and project how we think they should be. This goes on all the time for all of us. I was reading a small booklet from a brilliant writer named Byron Katie, and I realized that today I chose to go into something that was "true" that made me unhappy. From an Abraham Hicks perspective, a belief is only a thought you keep thinking. It's only true because we give our attention to it. I realized that I can choose to ignore people if I find them irritating in a certain moment. I can choose to leave a situation that doesn't feel good. I can even choose to stay in the situation and change how I'm viewing it. So fascinating! I could choose to love and accept my body. My perfectionism is the only thing stopping me from doing that. Is my deep down fear that I have an ugly body true? I have had other people that have literally seen my entire body from head to toe say otherwise. So what's true? Neither! That's the answer. Now, if I want to exercise, build more muscle, I can. I wonder how much of the energy I spent trying to hide my insecurities and fears could have been better spent in a yoga class, or doing pilates. It's utterly fascinating! I've been pushing so hard against what is. Byron Katie says instead accept what is and then decide what to do about it or how to shift it. Such a small leap but utterly brilliant. Here's another one: it will be challenging for me to find love. Is that true? Have I never loved before? I am loved right now. So I know it's not true! I could just as easily believe that love is easy to find. Romantic love will flow to me easily. I really am excited to delve deeper into Byron Katie's work. I really enjoy it! I think it will help me dissolve some of my most self-defeating thought patterns or at least become aware of them so I can shift them. Now for a poem! Something whimsical and fun tonight I think!

Child of the stars
Wandering afar
In this heavy world
From the heavens hurled.
You long to be free
Blown upon the breeze.
But care weighs you down
Turns your smile to a frown
How can you be lively
When the world's so heavy?
Before you shined in the sky
Always free to soar and fly.
But here you feel misunderstood
Unsure of what way would be good
I'll tell you child to shine despite
And fill the world with radiant light
No matter the choice, just glow
And you'll find your bliss here below.

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